[He did. Many horrible things. Not just the bodies and blood he had to acquire each time he tried, but the other materials and ingredients as well, even so much as what he needed to even read Draxum's books. There were a lot of unsavory things he did that he would never want Peter to know the details of. To himself and to others.
The stronger he feels Peter's ninpo, the more vulnerable he feels. He'd closed himself off for two and a half years, since that day he carried Peter's body back to the med bay. A dam that started to crack the minute he heard Peter's voice again and is breaking even further now like this.]
I'm sorry- I'm sorry, Peter, I'm so sorry. [He can't stop it, thinking about the things he did, the sins he committed that he would have never done otherwise. He would judge his brothers for these things, he never even considered this spell for Raph - and maybe a part of him is guilty there too. That he went through all this for his husband but not his brother.
He buries his face against Peter's front crying openly now, whispering apologies.]
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The stronger he feels Peter's ninpo, the more vulnerable he feels. He'd closed himself off for two and a half years, since that day he carried Peter's body back to the med bay. A dam that started to crack the minute he heard Peter's voice again and is breaking even further now like this.]
I'm sorry- I'm sorry, Peter, I'm so sorry. [He can't stop it, thinking about the things he did, the sins he committed that he would have never done otherwise. He would judge his brothers for these things, he never even considered this spell for Raph - and maybe a part of him is guilty there too. That he went through all this for his husband but not his brother.
He buries his face against Peter's front crying openly now, whispering apologies.]