But at the words, he goes completely still. While he doesn't like. Need to breathe in here, it feels like his breath catches somewhere in his throat on the way up and out. And as the words start to sink in, that goop ...recedes a little. Slowly, but it lessens its hold on him.
What is Raph even proud of? He's done nothing since being made leader except screw up, nearly get humanity destroyed, and oh yeah got his brothers all injured and traumatized.]
Love you too, Raph. Just... Take it easy, when you get to him.
[ Love was the answer all along, he knew it. He didn't know it. He's just full of very aggressive feelings. It makes sense that this Belos guy's deal would be basically allergic to stuff like honesty and support and love, though.
Raph wants a lot of things right now. They range from hovering over his brothers like a guard dog to doing some actual murder on Belos to asking very specific questions about where he messed up with Leo in the first place.
Maybe to cry until his head hurts and take a couple of hours to just sorta wallow in it. He's not too into that vibe normally. Checking out on his brothers. He doesn't do that. But there's a little appeal.
His wants are all pretty self-serving in this economy, he can admit that.
Later problems.
Raph exhales, halfway to a chuckle. ]
At least you already know you guys don't deserve a hard time.
[ He's still trying to wrap his brain around the you vs him terminology of chilling with a manifestation fragment guy.
Leo and Donnie about to be in baby mode until they hit their thirties though tbh. ]
[This Leonardo can't really tell what Raph is thinking. A little too lost in what he is to be able to sort through the tells Raph always has.
But the chuckle is good right.]
Do we?
[He isn't sure what Raph means. Not really, not fully. Leo caused so much damage by not listening, he went out of his way to make Raph angry hoping he'd take the spot back, he nearly got them all killed (nevermind the whole. Universe. Problem.) Why wouldn't he deserve a hard time? Even after all of this whole situation.]
I'll give you some leeway on this one 'cause I know you're just doin' your job right now. But lemme make my stance clear, brother.
[ Things he is also saying for his own benefit, as a reminder that this part of Leo is Made Of Doubts. The opposite of trust and faith and and going easy and what have you.
Raph, king of multitasking. ]
If you don't know it? You're gonna hear it until you do know. Whatever wires you and me got crossed? We're gettin' those uncrossed. 'cause if any of you guys think for a second that you aren't everything, that means I got stuff to apologize for. I don't want you gone. I don't want you hurt. Ever. End of story. No matter what goes down.
[ The fact that Donnie and Leo are both so messed up about stuff... it simply cannot stand. He can't even check in with Mikey in this place! Reality is committing crimes on him personally.
Not sure if threat or pep talk. ]
Also if that Raph action figure in your brain room looks at me funny one more time before we get outta here, I'm gonna chew on him. He can't take me.
[Big Boy Leonardo here watches him, taken a little aback by it. He can't like. Pat his shoulder or anything to reassure, nothing to console. But he can at least tell Raphael is serious about this.
Where had the wires gotten crossed? Was it that night with the Krang Key? Or was it before, when Splinter outright made him leader? Had it been earlier than that? Leo had thought during the confrontation with Shredder they'd worked things out. But then Leo had to be Leo about everything.]
You're definitely going to have to remind me. Real me, if you can get me free.
But for what it's worth? ...Thanks. It'll do good to hear it.
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But at the words, he goes completely still. While he doesn't like. Need to breathe in here, it feels like his breath catches somewhere in his throat on the way up and out. And as the words start to sink in, that goop ...recedes a little. Slowly, but it lessens its hold on him.
What is Raph even proud of? He's done nothing since being made leader except screw up, nearly get humanity destroyed, and oh yeah got his brothers all injured and traumatized.]
Love you too, Raph. Just... Take it easy, when you get to him.
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Raph wants a lot of things right now. They range from hovering over his brothers like a guard dog to doing some actual murder on Belos to asking very specific questions about where he messed up with Leo in the first place.
Maybe to cry until his head hurts and take a couple of hours to just sorta wallow in it. He's not too into that vibe normally. Checking out on his brothers. He doesn't do that. But there's a little appeal.
His wants are all pretty self-serving in this economy, he can admit that.
Later problems.
Raph exhales, halfway to a chuckle. ]
At least you already know you guys don't deserve a hard time.
[ He's still trying to wrap his brain around the you vs him terminology of chilling with a manifestation fragment guy.
Leo and Donnie about to be in baby mode until they hit their thirties though tbh. ]
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But the chuckle is good right.]
Do we?
[He isn't sure what Raph means. Not really, not fully. Leo caused so much damage by not listening, he went out of his way to make Raph angry hoping he'd take the spot back, he nearly got them all killed (nevermind the whole. Universe. Problem.) Why wouldn't he deserve a hard time? Even after all of this whole situation.]
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[ Things he is also saying for his own benefit, as a reminder that this part of Leo is Made Of Doubts. The opposite of trust and faith and and going easy and what have you.
Raph, king of multitasking. ]
If you don't know it? You're gonna hear it until you do know. Whatever wires you and me got crossed? We're gettin' those uncrossed. 'cause if any of you guys think for a second that you aren't everything, that means I got stuff to apologize for. I don't want you gone. I don't want you hurt. Ever. End of story. No matter what goes down.
[ The fact that Donnie and Leo are both so messed up about stuff... it simply cannot stand. He can't even check in with Mikey in this place! Reality is committing crimes on him personally.
Not sure if threat or pep talk. ]
Also if that Raph action figure in your brain room looks at me funny one more time before we get outta here, I'm gonna chew on him. He can't take me.
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Where had the wires gotten crossed? Was it that night with the Krang Key? Or was it before, when Splinter outright made him leader? Had it been earlier than that? Leo had thought during the confrontation with Shredder they'd worked things out. But then Leo had to be Leo about everything.]
You're definitely going to have to remind me. Real me, if you can get me free.
But for what it's worth? ...Thanks. It'll do good to hear it.
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[ Patting Big Leo on the head for good measure. ]
I should know. I'm from the future and I ain't scared of the work.
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He'll be glad to hear it.