Bootyyyshaker9000: You of all people know that's a coping mechanism and short hand to ask for time to process extremely difficult feelings. Bootyyyshaker9000: Meanwhile I'm not sure how much you believe I worry for you at this point.
Bootyyyshaker9000: I know you know us. Bootyyyshaker9000: Except you apparently have one giant blindspot that just so happens to be you shaped. Bootyyyshaker9000: So it bears repeating positive affirmations of care.
primetime: i kno primetime: d ive been busy all day finishing raphs pjs what do u want me to say primetime: 'o i shouldve been there at the game where mostly nice things happened and there wasnt any physical danger and ever1 is fine actually' ???
Bootyyyshaker9000: Raph will be delighted, you have good workmanship. Bootyyyshaker9000: Not necessarily, but you do seem to have some feelings on the matter, so maybe you do?
Bootyyyshaker9000: That is always a relief to here. Bootyyyshaker9000: But as Mikey would say, its important to acknowledge your own feelings, even if they don't necessarily make sense.
Bootyyyshaker9000: You say that and it really does just make me think I should. Bootyyyshaker9000: And now I don't know if my skills with judging another's emotions are improving, or its just the natural contrarianism you provoke from me.
Bootyyyshaker9000: I didn't know if it was upset, just that your gears were turning. Bootyyyshaker9000: You have been taciturn in your responses, which perhaps that could have been you were busy. Bootyyyshaker9000: But you have been consistently opinionated about my dating drama and you barely even do an 'I told you so.' Bootyyyshaker9000: Something is off and considering what happened the last time I didn't pursue something off, I want to know what's up.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Its called facetime. Bootyyyshaker9000: Also not my point, its just evidence. Bootyyyshaker9000: Maybe we should schedule a mindmeld session soon. It has been a while.
Bootyyyshaker9000: I want to murder Belos even more from a memshare is what stands out, but its also deflecting. Bootyyyshaker9000: Why don't you trust me?
primetime: because you're being super sus rn primetime: smth happened and u dont wanna tell me fine primetime: but dont act like im not talking when its u when u clearly kno smth that i should be upset about and wont say
Bootyyyshaker9000: I never said upset. Bootyyyshaker9000: My first thought was maybe you realized Hunter was cute and didn't want to say. Bootyyyshaker9000: But maybe you are upset. Bootyyyshaker9000: This is a lot of deflecting and avoiding and its not the disquieting feeling I had when it was Belos, but its still something. Bootyyyshaker9000: And now I'm frustrated because for all you convince yourself we don't trust you for little things, for things like my usual complaints, or momentary misgivings that we decide is worth working through, it never feels like you trust us. Bootyyyshaker9000: Like you don't trust me. Bootyyyshaker9000: What have I done to you that made you think you can't rely on me? Bootyyyshaker9000: Not for a mission or to take care of our family, because I know you trust me to do that. Bootyyyshaker9000: But not when it comes to you. Bootyyyshaker9000: Why do you think I won't do everything in my power to take care of you too?
[There is a long pause because did anything happen that would truly upset Leo?]
[It doesn't occur to him to feel bad about kissing Hunter. Why would it? Leo knows about his crush and as far as Donnie knows, Leo hasn't even expressed an interest in Hunter, he was actually kind of hoping to find it.]
[But Leo does have a weird sense about these things so he at least tries to Think About Something and there is only One Thing that was genuinely upsetting.]
Bootyyyshaker9000: Hunter saw one of my memories from the invasion. Bootyyyshaker9000: He fainted. Bootyyyshaker9000: But you were acting off before you thought there was something that I was feeling Bootyyyshaker9000: I guess sort of guilty? Bootyyyshaker9000: Guilt seems the wrong emotion, but I don't like he saw that.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Yes. He was upset I didn't give more details when I told him a bit about it before. Bootyyyshaker9000: That particular memory tends to overwhelm people who see it, Korone's reaction was very extreme as well. Bootyyyshaker9000: Even if the memory share was not my fault, I don't like being a source of pain for those I care about.
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Bootyyyshaker9000: Meanwhile I'm not sure how much you believe I worry for you at this point.
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primetime: no one knows u guys better than me ok
primetime: i get it
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Bootyyyshaker9000: Except you apparently have one giant blindspot that just so happens to be you shaped.
Bootyyyshaker9000: So it bears repeating positive affirmations of care.
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primetime: so trust me when i say im fine
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primetime: d ive been busy all day finishing raphs pjs what do u want me to say
primetime: 'o i shouldve been there at the game where mostly nice things happened and there wasnt any physical danger and ever1 is fine actually' ???
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Bootyyyshaker9000: Not necessarily, but you do seem to have some feelings on the matter, so maybe you do?
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primetime: that its fine and im glad you guys didnt get hurt
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Bootyyyshaker9000: But as Mikey would say, its important to acknowledge your own feelings, even if they don't necessarily make sense.
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primetime: good thing theres nothing else to think about it lucky me
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Bootyyyshaker9000: And now I don't know if my skills with judging another's emotions are improving, or its just the natural contrarianism you provoke from me.
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primetime: did smth happen that u THINK i should feel a way about ?
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Bootyyyshaker9000: You're the one who was getting uncharacteristically taciturn.
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primetime: so spill it lets get it over with
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Bootyyyshaker9000: You have been taciturn in your responses, which perhaps that could have been you were busy.
Bootyyyshaker9000: But you have been consistently opinionated about my dating drama and you barely even do an 'I told you so.'
Bootyyyshaker9000: Something is off and considering what happened the last time I didn't pursue something off, I want to know what's up.
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Bootyyyshaker9000: Also not my point, its just evidence.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Maybe we should schedule a mindmeld session soon. It has been a while.
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primetime: so what happened
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Bootyyyshaker9000: Why don't you trust me?
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primetime: smth happened and u dont wanna tell me fine
primetime: but dont act like im not talking when its u when u clearly kno smth that i should be upset about and wont say
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Bootyyyshaker9000: My first thought was maybe you realized Hunter was cute and didn't want to say.
Bootyyyshaker9000: But maybe you are upset.
Bootyyyshaker9000: This is a lot of deflecting and avoiding and its not the disquieting feeling I had when it was Belos, but its still something.
Bootyyyshaker9000: And now I'm frustrated because for all you convince yourself we don't trust you for little things, for things like my usual complaints, or momentary misgivings that we decide is worth working through, it never feels like you trust us.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Like you don't trust me.
Bootyyyshaker9000: What have I done to you that made you think you can't rely on me?
Bootyyyshaker9000: Not for a mission or to take care of our family, because I know you trust me to do that.
Bootyyyshaker9000: But not when it comes to you.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Why do you think I won't do everything in my power to take care of you too?
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primetime: so what happened
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[It doesn't occur to him to feel bad about kissing Hunter. Why would it? Leo knows about his crush and as far as Donnie knows, Leo hasn't even expressed an interest in Hunter, he was actually kind of hoping to find it.]
[But Leo does have a weird sense about these things so he at least tries to Think About Something and there is only One Thing that was genuinely upsetting.]
Bootyyyshaker9000: Hunter saw one of my memories from the invasion.
Bootyyyshaker9000: He fainted.
Bootyyyshaker9000: But you were acting off before you thought there was something that I was feeling
Bootyyyshaker9000: I guess sort of guilty?
Bootyyyshaker9000: Guilt seems the wrong emotion, but I don't like he saw that.
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primetime: is he ok ???
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Bootyyyshaker9000: That particular memory tends to overwhelm people who see it, Korone's reaction was very extreme as well.
Bootyyyshaker9000: Even if the memory share was not my fault, I don't like being a source of pain for those I care about.
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